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I am glad I went to the NICU/PICU panel at SJSU. It provided good insights that made me feel relieved. One of the things they talked about was having someone to vent out to after a stressful, not so good day. I felt relieved that people experienced things that I have, where they replay the scenario over and over again in their heads.

“What could have I done better?”

” I should of double checked A so B wouldn’t of happened”

I let that typically get the best of me at the end of the day. I’m the type of person that sits in their car after clinical and replays the scenario over and over again. On top of that, I have to take care of some family members at home. I get so stressed. 

Overall, it made me feel human. 

I’ve learned to call Romel when I get to the driveway and all the emotions and feelings that are said in the Stitch-mobile stays in the Stitch-mobile. I try not to carry it in my house. There’s enough stress in there as is. Special shootout to Romel, he is learning medical jargon and abbreviations like there is no tomorrow.